clark gable

HOT.

I walked by the planned parenthood mobile twice today.

from the cell

I could feel my head pounding from stress... There is so much to do... ''i don't want material things like a social status, i just want four walls and adobe slabs for my girlssss" - A.C

Caligula

why am i sitting here staring at the wall waiting for some miracle to happen? i should be doing some intense studying for school that i don't give a shit about. i just want to drop everything and go to art school, my drive is almost gone and it scares me. meanwhile im google -ing victorian/edwarian names for future children/pets.....like Lucian or Willow....

god i need some fucking meds.


im fucked...

Aveira
word for "sin" in Hebrew

Avon
in Hebrew, a sin of lust or uncontrollable emotion.

Azazel
Hebrew Bible goat-like demon

Azrael
Angel of Death in the Koran.

Balor
one-eyed giant in Irish mythology

Banshee
from Irish bean sidhe meaning "woman spirit; fairy; otherwordly being." The banshee screams when someone is about to die.

Bealtaine
Celtic holiday-- corresponds with May day (Celtic major festivals are held at mid-points between equinoxes & solstices, not on those days).

Beelzebub
Semitic god name sometimes used as an alternate for Satan.

Belial
another name for Satan

Belinda
a moon of Uranus (snicker, snicker.) The name probably derives from an old word for "serpent."

oh and...

note to self and others....just discovered Venetian Snares.....complicatedly cool..

Im blogging from my cheap ass phone now, so expect more nonsensical rambling..

WTF is right

ey man, there's not much to report, other than how freaked i am about this.....


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zto6aTZM9t0


I'm terrified, i really am, but I'm sure, my neice or nephews are gonna own this or something.


crazy ass alien shit, seriously.

emptiness

i don't know who my friends are. it's hard to believe that i'm alone. because i am.

sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will just finish me off.

there's no one watching.....

no man, like seriously... no one really follows my blog, well except one.

The SHIT that happened this weekend was crazy. but in an incredibly good way.

THE PARTY

• piale (my housemate) got drunk from 9pm till 9 the next day. she was takin jager shots at six in the morn. that girl can drink.


• met two golden people sarah and victor some of the greatest people i've met my life. seriously, no shit. sarah is super sweet and friggin cool as hell. victor, her boyfriend has some maddd taste in music, art and pretty much everything. he's hella down for anything and like sarah super fuckin sweet.


• victor accompanied piale on the drinking binge and ended up passing put first. they were a MESS, but it was allll goooood.


• i passed out to brenda , piale and victor playing ouija. i woke up to one broken candle holder, a cigarette put out on the board and cupcake smashed on my spell book...... (serious karma guys....) but it was allllll goooooooood.


• my floor is sticky.


• kenneth threw up mid-drinking bombay gin (nasty ass shit!!)


• finished a bottle of Moscato (this wine is motherfucking god)


• victor introduced himself to me by force-feeding a jager-red bull shot (fucked me up)


• my poor friend anthony got a major hangover, nearly past out in the shower, puked nonstop, nearly had to call 911. but the man is alll gooood.


• my friend brenda tried to paint her toenails through her tights..


• i found barbie pajamas from when i was 7 and put them on.


• found out animal collective are coke heads. (hmm postponed show??)


• everyone practically spent the night and chilled the next day.

well it was a pretty sweet housewarming party, all lot of other behind the scenes shit went down, but im not capable of remembering.

you should've came..

FALSE FACE SOCIETY

im planning to openning a store on etsy...and sell miraculously beautiful things, that you'd have to be an idiot not to buy. also it can be viewed via myspace if wanted.

a hopeful money maker, so i can live and stuff.

i will have some collaborators.

MURDER = me, its my alias (name i put on stuff i make) will explain below.

CARNIVORE= a vegetarian actually. my friend Brenda, one of my bestest friends in the world. she makes some seriously cool shit. talented with the spray can.

WEREWOLF = this may be her name. its my awsome roomie Piale. again this girl is talented, and knitter.

no. we aren't going for a theme. these are alias we have that we are using for the store and other artwork shiz. the false face society is a native american concept. its a group of medicine men and healers, that reside in a tribe of natives, but no one knows who they are exactly. they could be anyone in the tribe. they come out bearing masks when needed and perform their sacred rituals, the masks protect them from what ever is ailing the victim. thus, the false face society. in a way we are wearing false faces, because we can only truly reside in a ghost world that where our existence will truly be honest, but for this fucked cruel world......we wear masks.

yea so buy stuff !!!

MURDER: the attempted explaination..

first off, i don't use words, like for granted i guess you can say. i have deep meaning when i post shit or use them to like freakin update my status or twitter...(thats how you talk in this day and age.....btw you guys should get twitter...its the shit and add me!!!) so my display name is not always important, well it should never be...its a myspace. but murder has become more than that. i got it from a john frusciante (mad genius) song called murderers. somehow that word murder hit me with a different chord. it was murder anymore...it became murder. btw you wouldn't want to be around me when i have a epiphany like this...its freaky. anyways, murder is such a horid thing, i love the shock factor. but in a way we're all murderers of something, it can be the worst part of us. intentional heartless killing. i sign everything i can with murder now. really. another big thing is its relevance to animals, and you know i love animals. a murder is a group of crows. i can go into depth, if you ask me too. this is as much as i can get out of it for now. give me your question, i wanna answer stuff.

COACHELLA 2009

im fucking going!!!!! well imma try. roadtrip over there and see a buttload of amazing people. here's a lineup if ya'll need some convincing.

* A Place To Bury Strangers* Alberta Cross* Bajofondo* Beirut* Buraka Som Sistema* Cage the Elephant* Conor Oberst and the Mystic Valley Band* Craze and Klever* Crystal Castles* Dear and the Headlights* Felix da Housecat* Franz Ferdinand* Genghis Tron* Ghostland Observatory* Girl Talk* Gui Boratto* Leonard Cohen* Los Campesinos!* M. Ward* Molotov* Morrissey* N.A.S.A.* Noah and the Whale* Patton & Rahzel* Paul McCartney* Peanut Butter Wolf* People Under the Stairs* Ryan Bingham* Silversun Pickups* Steve Aoki* Switch* The Crystal Method* The Aggrolites* The Airborne Toxic Event* The Black Keys* The Bug* The Courteeners* The Hold Steady* The Presets* The Ting Tings* We Are Scientists* White Lies Saturday, April 18th * Amanda Palmer* Amy Winehouse* Ariel Pink's Haunted Graffiti* Atmosphere* Band Of Horses* Billy Talent* Blitzen Trapper* Bob Mould Band* Booker T* Calexico* Cloud Cult* Crookers* Dr. Dog* Drive By Truckers* Drop The Lime* Electric Touch* Fleet Foxes* Gang Gang Dance* Glass Candy* Glasvegas* Henry Rollins* Hercules and Love Affair* Ida Maria* James Morrison* Liars* Junior Boys* Mastodon* Michael Franti & Spearhead* MSTRKRFT* Surkin. Para One (Live)* Superchunk* The Bloody Beetroots* The Killers* Thenewno2* Thievery Corporation* Tinariwen* TRAV$DJ-AM* Turbonegro* TV On The Radio* Zane Lowe* Zizek ClubSunday, April 19th * Antony and the Johnsons* Brian Jonestown Massacre* Christopher Lawrence* Clipse* Friendly Fires* Fucked Up* Groove Armada (DJ Set)* Jenny Lewis* K'naan* Late of the Pier* Lupe Fiasco* Lykke Li* M.A.N.D.Y.* Marshall Barnes* Mexican Institute of Sound* My Bloody Valentine* No Age* Okkervil River* Paolo Nutini* Paul Weller* Perry Farrell* Peter Bjorn and John* Public Enemy* Roni Size Reprazent* Sebastien Tellier* Shepard Fairey* Supermayer* The Cure* The Gaslight Anthem* The Horrors* The Kills* The Night Marchers* Themselves* Throbbing Gristle* Vivian Girls* X* Yeah Yeah Yeah's* The Knux

the ones in colours are the reasons im heading out there, but the rest are definatly be checked out. amanda fucking palmer is playing, can u believe it??!! she's gonna try to start a uprise of streaking all over coachella, cuz apparently there's no fucking pigs there!!!

sweeeeeeeeet.

in more personal news....

1. i haven't gotten my license yet.. i know i know i've been kickin it, but its been a crazy month, hopefull i'll get in a few weeks


2. no job still....wanna hire me? :)


3. still wants dreads...need job first....wanna hire me!?


4. got searched by coppers, and forced to sit on a curb. grrrr. hegemony.


5. garcons.... i hate them!!! no i lied.


6. avoid online classes at all costs, trust me its not worth it, seriously fuckin mental sweatshop.


7. bringing up highschool shit will bring you down!! don't do it!!!! its about now!!!


8. broke


9. more people should blog. its a real iwannasayshitandifyoudon'twanttolistenthenpeoplewhodowillread.


10. wants you to hire her!!!!!! (im godamn serious, contact me for a resume.)


11. .

there's a baby inside that you've mistaken for pain.

i've been insane.

oh im obessessed with the triumph tr3. yea i like cars and what? but to be frank, i'd fuck that car.. ahhh, mild language please, im sorry. but in all seriousness. its a very genuine classic collectable that i want to drive to every important place in my life.

the man in it? i don't know who the fuck.